Saturday, January 8, 2011

How much is enough?

So, I have been trying to think of something to do for N in the spare time that I don't have.It is official! I am making her a doll house! All from scratch! With a hammer,nails,glue gun and sewing machine!And ofcourse all of the materials needed.
I am so excited about this.I mean REALLY excited. I am trying to put my touch on as much in her room as I can.We were bored with wood colors for furniture so we bought a used changing table and stripped and painted it as well as a dresser. It was a lot of fun when we were done.I want her to know we put a lot of effort into her arrival and having everything perfect for our perfect girl.
I don't know why it matters so much to me to make sure she knows we did everything possible we could do for her.I never want her to look back and say "if they would have just cared..".This is a huge fear of mine. I am scared she will never know how much her father and I love her.What if we die before she is old enough to remember us?Will she know we loved her? I try taking loads of pictures of her laughing and happy.I try to add the personal touch to her room and her accessories.
How much is enough and is there ever too much?Can you love your baby too much? And is this part of the post pardum depression I have been fighting?Does PPD cause you to feel over attached to your baby?Maybe I am just a freak.HA! No need to maybe that one!
I guess no one will ever know how much is enough.But I will do my damnedest to make sure she knows I love her.
So wish me luck on this doll house!And I will post pictures on all progress made.
How's everyone?Anyone have any spur of the moment projects going on?

1 comment:

  1. Ooh! I cannot wait to see how it turns out, Jenna! My great uncle built me a doll house when I was little. He has passed since, but I still love it and would like to revamp it for when V is a little bit older. Such an awesome idea! You are so creative and fun!